Thinking of a Warmer Time

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I’m having a day where I believe all of the lies. You know the ones, the tiny little self-doubting lies that eat away at you until you feel like a pile of dirty laundry strewn on the floor. The thing I don’t understand is that I KNOW these things not to be true. I KNOW I’m not worthless, or talentless, or dumb, or a complete and utter waste of human tissue but I can’t quite convince my mind to convert what I KNOW into how I FEEL. It’s miserable battling these pesky emotions that have somehow taken over and grown into physical pains. So much of it is fear. Fear that I’ll always be alone. Fear that I won’t hack it with my business to provide financially. Fear that I’ll just let everyone down. I know those are not truths, but they’re feelings and the perspective that feelings bring really make life seem out of whack. Screw that. So now, to calm my nerves, I just look at these photos and think of a warmer time knowing that it won’t always be so frigid. P.S. The temperature is a metaphor. To my life.

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