Some days I feel paralyzed from my emotions running rampant. Today is one of those days. The feelings of sadness, anger, frustration, jealousy and mental exhaustion are so heightened it’s almost numbing. It’s like my emotional thermometer is completely busted and I’m struggle to determine what it is that I feel and more importantly what TO DO to get out of this feeling.
I find myself dreaming so hard of an alternate life. I keep telling myself that this isn’t the worst thing a person has ever had to go through but my mind keeps springing back at me, “But it’s the worst thing I have ever had to go through. Separations are hard. It would be so much easier if life was like those “Choose your own adventure” books with alternate endings; That way you could peek ahead and see if that road would be worth it in the end.
Oh well, I guess I’ll be like everybody else and figure it out on my own.